Like many school-aged students, I hated science growing up. Math
is like a foreign language to me. To be honest, me and my friends found cool
when we said “I don’t like math”. Only nerds like math. Therefore, I resented spending
time studying Math, when I could had been reading books, or watching movies. For
years, I kept a thought in my mind that I am not a math person. It was too
tedious, arbitrary. Its problems would not apply to my real life, no sense of
fun exploration. I had a difficulty with the language of mathematics and was
proclamation “I am not a math person” stuck with me from my middle school to
community college. At the community college, I got C for my algebra class. The
quarter after, I failed miserably the Pre-calculus.
Chemistry was another enemy of mine. I found chemistry
extremely hard because the subject brings in new, unique language composing of
symbols of elements, formulae for chemical compounds and tons of chemical
equations. In addition, there was so much math in chemistry. I believed it already
had been enough of a cognitive load of trying to figure out what’s happening on
the molecular/particle level. Making me connect that to math adds layers which
causes a lot of struggle for myself. I had no idea why I was learning about
dimensional analysis. And how would we apply half reaction and the Nerst
equation to real life situation?
As result of nervousness and my known fear to science
courses, I kept making many trifle and silly mistakes during exams. Another
careless mistake I have made was miscalculation. Petty addition, multiplication
or subtraction ruined the whole answer.
My antagonism with those science subjects lasted until I got
a notice saying that I was in academic warning. It was a wake-up call for me.
My mind encountered many negative thoughts. What if I would
be in academic warning next quarter. Then I would be dismissed from school. My mom
would be very disappointed. She sacrificed a lot for me. It was exceedingly
nerve-racking about telling my mom about my failure. This bad news would
definitely be acute to her.
I was international students back then. Thus, it costed a
fortune for my mom to pay for my tuition. I spent days agonizing what I had to
do, “I can’t be banned from school. I can’t waste all of my time and my mom’s
money that she worked so hard for me. It is fortunate for me to come to America
to study. There are billions of unlucky people out there dreaming to take a
foot in America. I cannot take my privilege for granted. It is totally possible
to ace those course that I hate. I hate them just because I haven’t put enough
effort to study and understand them”.
I started to change my attitude about those subjects. I believed
that once I understood them, I wouldn’t think that they are boring and
the classes that I did poorly in, make weekly visits to the student tutoring
program, and not hesitant to discuss problems with my professors
determined that I had to get at least B for my science courses. I did all of
the homework, taking notes and paying attention during lectures. I spent at
least 2 hours of studying after classes. I did every problem in the math and
chemistry textbooks. I read textbook before and after every lecture.
myself to work on problem set as soon as possible. Often a step in the problem could
be utterly perplexing in the first time when I took a look at the page. However,
after scrutinizing it for a while, or sometimes even days, the answer became
obvious. The exhilarating feeling after untangling a problem encouraged me to work
on more problem and be more studious. And last, but certainly not least, I made
sure I received counseling or talk to someone if undergoing something that I
could not handle and was a danger to my mental health.
Eventually, everything was paid off. I got A- for Calculus1,
A for Calculus 2, and A for General Chemistry 3. It was out of my expectation.
I had never dreamed that I would ace any science courses. I always thought that
I was not smart enough. And math and chemistry would be my enemy for the rest
of my life.
knowledge and understanding increases, I become ever more motivated to delve
deeper into the subjects. It is amazing to me that we can figure out so much
about how molecules interact in order to create the materials that make up our
world. It is empowering to be able to figure this stuff out. The
challenge involved in learning the science of literally everything is not an
easy feat, but it’s one I’m willing to try to accomplish.
Beside Chemistry, I also find Biology
intriguing to study. What attract me most about this subject are the human life
processes and how they could be obstructed by disease. I have always been
fascinated by scientific research and the opportunity to become a specialist in
diagnosis and treatment of human diseases. Being Biomedical Researcher has
potential of improving the lives of millions suffering from medical conditions
or disease. Additionally, a wide range of position and field in careers of
Biomedical Science can help me choose specific area of my future career. This is the reason why I choose to study
applying for a degree course at UW Tacoma because the university provides
excellent chances not only to gain professional qualifications, but also to
live and work in multicultural environment. The opportunity to deepen my
knowledge while approaching the major with like-minded people at university
would be extremely fulfilling.